Thursday, 15 November 2012

Fear of Unhappiness

It scares me now thinking that id be leaving you again soon. I regret ever coming home. Home to you. Feels like i never wanna leave again. You made me forget all the reasons why im supposed to be where i should be, and not here where you are. You reminded me of what happiness is. And its exactly where we are right now. Im scared of being sad again. Of missing you. And longing for you. And knowing that you wouldnt be beside me in each moment that i would feel down and unpretty. When id feel unwanted and miserable. I need you in my life. Always. In each and every single day. I love you. I love you so much.  

Wednesday, 14 November 2012

Sparkle Sakura Gray

Im sorry, it took so long for me to continue this Sparkle lens review. I was just too lazy to update this blog. Sorry. I just found the time to update this cos i just finished designing some card templates for Lash-Up. I will be blogging about Lashup next time :]
So here's my other pair of Sakura Lenses from Sparkle. Like my Brown ones, this is 15mm as well. I will have the same ratings with regards to comfort. But with Enlargement and Design, its a different story. This is my current favorite lens to wear, not that i have alot to choose from though. ~Haha.

Here's how they look soaked in solution. The grey part isnt really noticeable. Which i like. Cause sometimes when its too vibrant or light, it may look too ghoulish or cataract-infected. Haha. Seriously, ive seen people wearing the wrong shade of grey on their eyes. :P

A photo of me wearing it, with flash from the cam. It looks so dreamy and scary at the same time. Haha.
Another photo, this time, without flash, but take note that i am directly under the luminance of my room fluorescent light. I was lying down on my bed when i took this! Haha. Here is a collage of my pics, ahem, vain much i know. Its just that, this is my fave pair of lenses to wear! HAHA!

Lens: Sparkle Sakura Gray
Diameter: 15mm

LifeSpan: 1year
Price: 199php

Design: 4/5 Almost with the same effect as Geo Sakura Gray and Eos Candy Gray but still not quite the same. This one is less vibrant and opaque and i believe these ones from Sparkle has a thicker and darker limbal ring which i adooore so much. And also, it has a zigzag-y spikey gray color on the inside, instead of just one solid gray color.
Enlargement: 5/5 Enlarges my eyes SO WELL,  they look perfectly round and dolly. My eyes look very emphasized when im wearing these, not really very natural. But yes, dolly, indeed.
Comfort: 3/5 Superb comfort level. I almost gave it a 4 or 5. But because of it being too thin and hard to put on, i decided to just give it a 3. Worn it for long period of time without eye drops or lubricant, still no irritation. My eyes arent extremely dry anyway.
TOTAL: 4/5 Insanely comfortable to wear. Just hard to put on. Design is great. Very affordable. Always available online. Gives a very dark mysterious dolly effect. I dont pretty much think that this is perfect for everyday wear, maybe for others yeah. But for myself, i wear this when im wearing my black and white cross and skulls ensembles, and mostly not during chirpy sunny mornings, maybe night time? But thats just me. Haha :D 

 So there, i hope you found this review of mine helpful. Enjoy your day today! ^_______^

Friday, 9 November 2012


Im so happy to have a pefect mix of friends. Wild, demure, noisy, naive, lewd, crazy, embarassing, etc. Haha! I may only have a few of em, but i dont care if i only get a few real friends till i die, theyir craziness is enough to last me a lifetime. And they may not be literally beside me all the time. But i know they always have my back.. My stuff. My food. Haha! And not always the typical 'good' friends.. May not be the most perfect and sane examples of human beings.. But im always glad i met each of em :) Better than any one else's set of friends. That, im proud of. :) i love YOU. Yes, the five of you. @yaahyeeh @noaduhhrwmn @kawoh0401 @verzaxhe @beverlyjoylazo

Tuesday, 18 September 2012

Sparkle Sakura Brown

From my previous post, i mentioned that i got myself some new lenses. One of em is the Sparkle Sakura Brown 15mm. I used to own a pair of Geo Sakura Brown, and yes they almost have the same design. But when these lenses arrived, i realized that they have a little difference. When you look closely, you will notice that aside from it being soaked upside down [haha], is that the inner lighter brown color has a spiky design towards the center. Whereas in the Geo Sakura, the brown part is a solid ring of color. But they both have thick black limbal rings. Which i adore so much. Makes the eyes look very dolly and anime-like.
Also, another thing i noticed is that, the Sparkle lenses are soo much thinner than my previous Sakura Lens from Geo. Although, they are a breeze to wear since i could hardly feel anything in my eyes when i wear em, the downside of it being extremely thin is that IT IS SUCH A PAIN TO PUT ON. They keep sticking on my finger and just wont stay in my eye when i put em. It takes me atleast a minute or two to put them in place. Unlike in my Geo lenses, i can even put em on without a mirror and it would only take me 2-3 seconds. Just one try, and theyre perfectly in place. With this Sparkle lens that im reviewing, i have been warned by another seller friend that the reason why this Sparkle lenses are so cheap is that they are really thin, hence, they would probably tear easily. By the way, i got this pair for 199php from a Facebook seller-friend. The Geo lenses cost atleast 300php.
Wearing the lens. Photo take with Flash.
They are not as vibrant as my Geo Sakura as well, they look a tad darker on my very dull black eyes compared to when Geo Sakura. Which kinda disappointed me. But well, atleast its a lil more natural looking. Since it blends so well with my natural eye color and the stark distinction between the lens and my real eye color isnt so noticeable or bold. Except for the thick black limbal ring ofcourse, there's nothing really natural about it. ~haha

And here's another photo of me wearing Sparkle Sakura Brown without Flash. See? It almost looks black! Or atleast with a hint of dark brown going on. Oh well, i still love these lenses nonetheless. But i would probably go back to Geo Sakura Brown when this one tears. :p

SO, Here's a VERY large collage of my photo wearing 'em. ~Boo! Haha!

Lens: Sparkle Sakura Brown
Diameter: 15mm

LifeSpan: 1year
Price: 199php

Design: 4/5 Almost with the same effect as Geo Sakura brown and Eos Candy brown but still not quite the same. This one is less vibrant and opaque. Love the thick black limbal ring!
Enlargement: 5/5 Enlarges my eyes pretty well, but nothing too obvious and alieny about it. Just perfectly round and dolly. 
Comfort: 3/5 Superb comfort level. I almost gave it a 4 or 5. But because of it being too thin and hard to put on, i decided to just give it a 3. Worn it for long period of time without eye drops or lubricant, still no irritation. My eyes arent extremely dry anyway.
TOTAL: 4/5 Insanely comfortable to wear. Just hard to put on. Design is max chio. Very affordable. Always available online. Natural looking yet gives dolly effect. Good for everyday wear. :]

Anyway, i hope you all have a great day ahead! Smile and be happy always <3

Monday, 17 September 2012

Sparkle Sakura

Its been a long time since i ordered anything online. Im at my parent's house right now, yes, BUMMING again. So anyway, when the LBC guy came, who ive been waiting for the entire day, i was actually in the bathroom and taking a shower. Perfect timing! Gah! So yeah, my mom had to receive it. When my mom came back to the house, she told me that Manong LBC actually mentioned that its really been a long time since he last delivered something for me. And she added that while i was in Manila, everytime that that delivery guy would come to our house to bring something for someone else, he would wonder why he hasnt been seeing any packages for me. Cause before, i always had one atleast once a week. Haha. Hes such a jolly guy! Hes the one i always pester in their office when my packages are late~ haha.

So here's whats inside. 4 pairs of lenses and 4 lens cases. Brand of lens is Sparkle. Ive not tried any of their lenses yet, this is my first time to actually wear something from em. Although, Ms.Maricel of Gorgeousmine Onlineshop, where i got these from has been my supplier of lenses before. And ive already ordered from her multiple times. I like her shop's service cos she's so easy to talk to and delivery is fast, and also she has the lowest price for this kind of lenses. These 4 pairs are not all mine, 2 pairs are for my friend. 

Here's what i got for myself. A brown and grey lens.

Here's my Sparkle Sakura Brown 15mm

And my Sparkle Sakura Grey 15mm

I immediately soaked them in my lens solution. I know, my brown lenses are upside down. I did not have a hard time opening the vials, which had the same metal encased lid as Geo, cause i used our handy pliers! Haha. Never attempt to open em using your bare hands!!!

Right now, im only into grey, brown and black lenses. Before, when i was still a lens-gaga; i also had green, blue and turquoise, i think? But now, im more into those natural colors. No more fancy eye colors for me. Plus, ive always loved my Geo Sakura brown before. Which i lost. I think. I dont know where they are now. Reason why i ordered this same design from Sparkle. Theyre alot cheaper too. Sparkle is less than a hundred worth compared to Geo. 

As you can see im a big fan of the big dolly eye effect, hence the thick black limbal ring. I usually find lenses like these so doll-like and anime-ish. And i dont know why, but i somehow find them more natural? Unlike most people who think theyre too unrealistic to wear. Haha. Oh well. I will have a  more in-depth review about them soon. :] Have a great day everyone!

Friday, 23 December 2011


It'll be Christmas eve tomorrow, but i dont feel giddy and excited at all. Not an inch of me feels 'merry'. Hmm. Maybe its because those people i used to celebrate Christmas with for the past years, i know wont be celebrating it with me now. I have a very huuuuge extended family. When i was younger, all my cousins from all sorts of places would come home to my Grandparents house during the holidays and we'd all get to see and play with each other. There'd be a tonful of gifts under the christmas tree, and id huddle under it tryna see which ones belong to me. There would be alot of us kids but we'd all have gifts and pamasko from the tito's and tita's, lolo's and lola's. It was just so happy. One time, i remember receiving Playstation 1 from my lolo. It made me hella happy. Plus, i also regularly received a gift from Santa! I enjoyed opening gifts, singing and playing parlor games infront of everyone! 

Now, for one, My Mama aint home. She's still in Abu Dhabi and i badly miss her. But ill be sending her a gift, a customized shirt i designed that the boyfriend will print tomorrow. Here's the design i made.
Second, my dearest Lola just passed away last month. I actually miss her scolding all of us when we'd get too noisy and rowdy in her house. But she adores all of us, and especially me, i believe, since i always get a bigger amount of pamasko from her. Moohaha! :D

And then third, my beloved Lolo just went to the States a few weeks ago. And my closest and fave tita and tito wont be coming home here in the province too, since their flight is scheduled on the 27th. They'll be migrating to the States too.

Fourth, our family house is technically EMPTY. Not really, but it feels like it. No one's usually home. Lahat may kanya kanyang lakad. Sad.

Fifth, my tita who usually cooks for us during Noche Buena decided to spend Christmas in Manila with her other side of the family. SO NO SCRUMPTIOUS FOOD WORTH LOOKING FORWARD TO :[ Plus, she gives me the nicest gifts! ALWAYS MAKEUP! She know me too well. 

Sixth, i know i wont be receiving any gifts tomorrow night. I KNOW, im not a kid anymore, Its just that nothing beats the sheer joy of opening gifts and the feeling of anticipation and surprise. Oh well. And most likely, id be getting just cash; though i doubt it too, since i dont have Ninongs and Ninangs, they all disappeared from the face of Earth. All overseas and i barely know any of em. PERFECT.

Anyway, to lighten up the mood though, ima show you a few of our home Christmas decors:

That's it. I hope tomorrow will be better. I don't wanna celebrate the supposed happiest occasion of the year, feeling this way. May you guys have a lovely Yuletide Celebration too! :] Merry Christmas, y'all!